What possesses me to spend so much time ruminating about a man whom I never met? A man who left the world a decade ago. What is it about Peter McWilliams that has me so fascinated and so dedicated to help keep his memory alive?
I had read "How to Survive the Loss of a Love" and fell in love with Peter's poetry. His heartache is so real and raw it reaches out and grabs me every time. It has helped heal my heart and has been tremendous therapy.
Only recently (last December in fact) did I truly discover "You Can't Afford the Luxury of a Negative Thought." This book profoundly changed and is still changing the way I think about myself, my life and the world. I am finally beginning to like myself, and I am noticing things are just falling into place, life is "not a struggle, it's a wiggle," just as Peter once wrote.
I'm just beginning to delve into Peter's other works. Everything he has written, I have a tendency fall in love with. I am sure I would have bored Peter to tears for I agree with so many of his viewpoints and he always loved a good debate, I am told.
Peter's work ethic was so inspiring. He was publishing his own poetry books while still in his teens. He was constantly churning out best-sellers. He knew how to market himself
back when we didn't have the conveniences we all take for granted today.
Peter's passionate personality intrigues me. I've learned that he could really roar if he got mad-some say that's a flaw but I say that's true beauty for it shows how much he cared about getting things right.
His struggle with AIDS and Cancer is so heartbreaking, maddening and mystifying to me. The amount of strength and courage he had, the humor he still showed through it all. I know people who whine over paper cuts like it's the end of the world!
Peter's bold battle with the government in not allowing him the precious, healing medicinal marijuana-the one salve that could save his life and help to better digest the "combination cocktail" the Doctors gave him.
There are so many things about Peter that I love. It is true-his words have helped change, heal and save my life. His courage in the face of fear has led me here to remember and always love him.